Yesterday, I drove several hours in rainy rush hour traffic to go hang out with The Lorelle for a bit before she went back home to Oregon. We joked and laughed about blogging fame and fortune (and the lack thereof for many a month as a new blogger), shared personal stories of overcoming our own self-imposed limitations and self-sabotage in the past, and got to chatting about new projects in the future that we might consider working on with each other.

On the way home, the enormity of the SOBCon experience hit me. And I was extremely UNcomfortable.

I don’t know what it was about talking with Lorelle – something about the fact that I was sitting and having coffee with THE Lorelle, the prospect of working with her, or the fact that she made the comment that she thought I was on the road to fame or what… but I left feeling a bit scared and like I was walking around in shoes WAY too big for my tiny feet to handle.

It’s even weird to blog this, because I don’t want to sound conceited, and I feel like I shouldn’t make a big deal about this kind of stuff. I should take my own dang advice and put one foot in front of the other and just focus on the next task on my list.

Instead, I realize that at SOBCon I hit a point of no return. My name is now out there as an inspirational speaker and leader. And I did it in front of 110+ people, not just from my comfy little home office in my favorite room in the house. I’m living my mission and suddenly it became very clear to me that taking the easy way out or turning back is not an option anymore. That’s flipping scary (and since this is a PG-13 blog, I’ll just let you know that I really mean the other F word in that sentence).

Was it an option before? Probably not. But now it seems so much more real than it did before last weekend.

You know what? Living and working your mission is a wonderfully exciting and enthralling way to live. But at times, it really feels quite literally like I have 20 hands pulling my heart in all directions in order to make it bigger. I’m not complaining, because I am 100% grateful to be feeling this way.

It’s been a long, long time since I’ve questioned publishing a post. But if I am to live what I just told 110 people to live, then I had better damn well get over myself and get on with this.

So why am I publishing this post?

The biggest reason is because I want you to know that when you are successful, you aren’t going to suddenly sit back and feel confident 100% of the time. Sometimes, you won’t feel like you know what the hell you are doing. Sometimes, you will wonder how the hell you will handle it all.

So, if you’re waiting until you feel totally capable and confident before you go for your dreams, you’ll never get there. Go now, and jump off the cliff while you know you have no wings on your back.

You’ll just have to trust that you will grow those wings on the way down.